Something opens our wings.
Something makes boredom and hurt disappear.
Someone fills the cup in front of us:
We taste only sacredness.
When I first chose this quote to accompany my image I thought it was the idea of filling one's self up with sacredness that appealed to me. Now that I am constructing the draft for this post, I realize it is probably the phrase "Something makes ... hurt disappear" that grabbed my attention.
Back in January when given the go-ahead to lift weights and do a bit of exercise with my then mended broken bones in my left arm, I was a little too enthusiastic. Using a powerful stretch-band contraption that hooks around your feet and has two other extensions for your hands, I stretched and pulled and felt very proud of myself. While I felt no pain at the time, it seems I tore a ligament or something in my upper arm for I have had continuous pain radiating from my shoulder down to my wrist since.
It has been about a month now and last week while finding myself feeling rather discouraged, I decided to follow some of my own advice and try changing my relationship to the pain. Rather than resenting it, cursing it, wishing for it to disappear, I decided to see if I could allow it, try to understand it, respect it. Well, I am doing it - not consistently - sometimes I forget and slip back into frustration, annoyance and self-pity. I console myself that at least I have 'awakened' and brought into awareness that I do have a choice in how I relate to the pain. I wonder if I can take it a step further, follow Rumi's advice and view this cup of pain as sacred? (Right now - not so much! :-)
So there I am wanting to relate in a new way to pain, and still choosing a poem that speaks of 'making hurt disappear'. It is always a challenge to stay conscious and to not regress into child-like wishful thinking when in circumstances that would not normally be of one's choosing.
My postings have been sparse and rather wimpy of late, due in part to some difficulty concentrating with pain on and in my shoulder radiating down into my wrist. Please bear with me (or is it bare with me - I always get those two mixed up!), I hope to be able to bring my full attention and awareness to my posts soon.
There is still a free texture available for you to download in yesterday's post (Feb. 20th).