Friday, July 2, 2010

...death of the ego...



"The death of the body is accompanied by less agony than the death of the ego, the false self. 

The death of the ego is a tearing away of everything we imagine to be solid, a crumbling of the walls we have built to hide behind. 

It means the death of everything we have learned to be, all the thoughts and projections that so enamored us in the past and created someone for us to be in the future. 

When all we have imagined ourselves to be is allowed to die, everything is seen in its essentially empty, impermanent nature. 

We realize and experience the superficiality of the separate self we have clung to so long. 

We experience the deep satisfaction of no one to protect and no one to be...The mind and heart coincide in loving surrender and clear acceptance of what is."

~Stephen Levine
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I am working on facilitating the death of ego ... in me.  Sometimes it lies quietly pretending to have expired.  But then it self-resurrects needing to protect and control ... again.  I console myelf *  with the thought that with a cleansing breath I can often put her back to sleep and experience the peace of no one to be, nothing to prove....the fullness of being in nothing.  For now, it is a process, a path, a remembering, a learning.  Just recalling that there is the option to step out of ego-mind is liberating. 

And so I publish posts that serve as reminders of where I need/want to be ... and hope they offer something of benefit to you too.

* Yes, I  see the typo where the 's'  has been left out of 'myself'.  Perhaps it is a sign of having loosened the grip of ego: moving from being myself to my-elf.  I kind of like that, so why not allow myself to be myelf!  One character removed from myself could mean the weakening of ego, don't you think?  Would you like to join me in being an elf instead of a self today?






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26 comments:

  1. oh but they do...mine tend to be those places i dont want to find myself at times, and others things for me to strive towards...

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  2. The death of the ego -- the conditioned mind and false self -- is to be devoutly wished. I question, however, whether something so strong can be totally extinguished. More important, perhaps, is that one not identify with the ego. On a personal level, I simply try to remain conscious of the ego and all of its insanity, reminding myself always that my ego is not who I am. In the best of times -- and I am not always at my best -- I am the presence and consciousness that can observe the ego, yet not be a slave to it.

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  3. This quote and post speaks to me directly as well. I see it partly as a process of letting go of all the little envies, presuppositions, vanities...

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  4. Love your handling of the typo. The whole post helps hasten the day when we can grow beyond 'selfishness' and cultivate 'elfishness'.

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  5. Letting go. I let go of things and then find myself having to let go of them again but the attachments seem to be lessening.

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  6. HI BONNIE
    ELF? I like it. :-)

    I realized I was truth when I stod alone in a dark place and allowed myself to feel what was mine to feel. No ego in that, only pain. On the other side? Freedom.

    Love to you
    Gail
    peace and hope.....

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  7. I would love to believe the ego could be destroyed. I would love even more to believe that I could destroy my own ego, or at least reign it in...

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  8. I don't believe in elfs (or elves), but I'd love to join you in giving up this burdensome thing, this ego, which so often gets in the way of the real me, the me that wants the simple things, the immediate connectedness with nature, love, life, kindness, friendship.
    Like Emily Dickinson says : to be a nobody, not a named somebody who needs to advertise her being.

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  9. Yes...I often remember that Tolle says sometimes just the awareness of ego is progress in letting ego go... thanks for the reminder, it is needed and I may go spend some time with Eckhart today :)

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  10. I think my problem most of the time is that I don't have an ego! I'm too wussy! I need to find my "elf" to give me strength to stand up for me and make me strong!

    But I understand what you are saying! :)

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  11. Interesting post, Bonnie. I find it happens one small step at a time. Something occurs and you want to say something that will put you in a good light with the listener, or boast that you have done this or that - then if one consciously doesn't speak out I feel one has won a little victory in - as you put it so well - the death of an ego.

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  12. Brian: I must be thick, but I am not catching the gist of your comment. Must be the flames tinkering with our connection!

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  13. George: I so agree. Perhaps a cloistered monk could achieve the death of ego - disidentifying from ego is a better and more feasible concept for most of us.

    Our observer mind is always there and if we can shift our identification from ego to observer, there is much we can learn.

    I love how Mark Epstein talks about meditation as a means of using ego to dismantle ego. Have you read his "Thoughts Without A Thinker" and "Going on Being"? He is a Buddhist psychiatrist in NYC.

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  14. PaulC: Yes - that is true. Transcending ego means more than not being selfish or egocentric however.

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  15. Lorenzo: I am sensing there is some elfish energy in you too! ;-)

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  16. ellen: Yes, it is ego that attaches, is always wanting more ... The incessant desiring that leads only to disappointment and suffering.

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  17. Gail: Yes, transcendence of ego surely is freedom.

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  18. Missy: That's it - we do not have to necessarily destroy it as Levine suggests, but rather as George in his comment above says - to disidentify from it and to manage it rather than it manage/run us.

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  19. Friko: Yes, a no-body or no-thing. Just being ... being with all that the universe provides as it flows past, around, through us.

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  20. Vicky: Good point. Once you are aware or begin to think about ego, you have begun to pull back and look at ego. It is no longer subject, but object. You are then able to disengage or disidentify from ego. Awareness has magic in it.

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  21. Pat: I think you are made of many interesting parts, one of them being imp/elf!!! I love all that is impish and elfish about you.

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  22. Weaver of Grass: Yes, that is a good indicator - when we can go with the flow, or just let things be that we are not being driven by ego.

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  23. My elf!!! I LOVE that!!! Would we all would embrace life with childlike hearts! Beautiful thoughts and photo, Bonnie! Love, Janine XO

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  24. I'm trying, but today is a rough one. Thanks for the reminder, though. I needed to read this.

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  25. Janine: Ah ... it feels good to know that you can appreciate my childlike heart! I think it takes one to know one.

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  26. Nancy: Sorry to hear it is a rough day for you. Hope whatever it is passes soon.

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